When do you see this dark cloud lifting from over my life? It appears I keep making bad decisions. It really got bad when my job ended in January of 2004. Right after that, I got really sick and had to have surgery (February of 2004). I’ve been trying my best to get back on track, or at least to head in a more positive direction. I am very unhappy with the job I have and my love life sucks. But I’ve been trying my hardest to find a better job and nothing seems to be working for me right now. I know perhaps I need to go to school to get some kind of training, but what I want to get training for only has classes in the day time. I feel as though I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. My birth date is June 24th and I would appreciate any advice or guidance to head me in the right direction.
Thanks in advance for your help.
Jean in Austin
Keep trying to turn things around. It is going to take time, but you will manage.
Sometimes we create our circumstances with our decisions, and other times it is just a case of karma unloading. You are suffering from a healthy mix of both. Beating your head against the wall isn’t going to help anything, but it is going to give you a headache. So, stop. Things aren’t always as bad as they feel, and your world isn’t as dreary as you are making it seem. You’ve been through worse already, and you have had success in avoiding some things that could have made the here-and-now much darker than what it is. Be thankful.
Your job stinks and your love life sucks. This is true. But neither one of these things is a permanent state of being. Hard as it may be, you really need to keep the faith in that. It is not your circumstances that will change to correct your attitude, but your attitude that must change to correct your circumstances. I know you don’t mean to, and I’m not even sure if you are aware of it, but you exude a jagged negative and frustrated energy that people pick up on, and I’m not just talking about psychics. This energy cloaks the “real you,” and is part of that wall you keep ramming your head into.
Jean, it is time to burn the list of all the crap and wrong that came into your life. It has served its purpose; it brought you here.
The good news is, you are on the brink of recovering your spirit and creating a more peaceful and rewarding existence for yourself. The bad news is that your love life is going to continue to suck until other areas of your life are once again in proper alignment; which is looking like roughly a two year span. This isn’t to say you won’t have a romantic moment or two, it’s just that your focus needs to be everywhere else but love.
As far as your career path goes, education is in your future. The pretty immediate future, if you take action. While I don’t see you landing some glorious night job to free your days for class, I do see you finding another way to get the education you seek. I believe you are going to find an alternative. Schooling that can be done online that is related to your chosen field is what comes up. It is time to broaden your perspective. Life seldom unfolds to the specifications of our own design. But, when we are open to the options and opportunities that are within reach, we usually end up taking a path that brings us to a better place than where we would have gotten to if everything were completely under our own control.
Understand that when we feel like we are trapped between the proverbial rock and hard place, it is because we have only given ourselves those two choices: rock or hard place.
Take a day to wall yourself away from everything. Use that time to feel sorry for yourself; hate the world if you must, boo-hoo until there are no more tears and be done with it! Release that energy and all that negativity. Then, choose to move forward clean and ready to create positive changes in yourself and accept positive change in your life.