I sit today and I am trying to find the words to write my mother’s obituary, she is leaving us soon. You would think I would be full of grief but instead I feel overwhelming peace… I would like to share with you my Christmas miracle.
The gifts of Spirit can be a gift or a curse. To me they have been both. I have known, seen,felt and heard things all my life but I was raised that it was wrong. I have spent my life trying to suppress them, yet at the same time understand them. 12 years ago I hit my knees and totally surrendered my life to God. My health improved, I was in a constant state of bliss. I witnessed miracles happen through me, and saw the soul healings that took place with the words that flowed through me.
In my excitement to share this with my family, I was cast aside. Mom said if I continued to “worship the devil” that she would no longer be my mom. She had shame in her heart that I was her daughter. Now not only have I been super sensitive to people’s words all my life, but I am a Cancer!
Family is the most important thing to a Cancer. I told my mom that I would stop, but I continued to help people, even if it was only a small amount, I could not bring myself to totally shut it down. But I told mom, when she gets to the other side she had better come and apologize to me for all the mean things she has said and done. She said I was crazy. I said maybe, but I am serious, when you see the truth you have got to come and tell me.
Four days ago, I was having dinner with my granddaughter and her other grandma. At the end of the meal Kathy asked me if I have ever met her twin sister, and I said no. She said she keeps seeing you! I thought she meant I was using my gifts to nib in on her privacy, which I would never do. I said tell her to call me, we have to clear this up.
Tuesday morning I got a phone call. The blessing came through a woman named JoAnn. She said this woman keeps coming to her and she thinks it is my mom. Her name is Marian. She has been trying to reach you and you will not listen. (My mom is in the final stages of dementia and Parkinson’s disease.) Mom said she can not leave without my forgiveness, that she knows things now and she is sorry.
This beautiful person Joann had no idea the impact of what she was saying. This is truly a miracle. Mom somehow found this woman and knew she would be the one to get the words to me. Mom kept showing her an image of me — for almost a month! JoAnn told my mom she does not know who I am or how to find me, so mom projected to her an image of my granddaughter, but it was not until last week that JoAnn saw a photo of me on my granddaughters computer and asked her sister, “who is that woman! That is the one I have been seeing! She is the one I have to get the message to!” And she did!
Mom could have waited until she got on the other side, but she gave me a great gift! She accepted it while she is still in her body. I received the blessing of my mom before she leaves here, she said she “sees now and she understands, for me to be me and be happy.” I felt hypnotized, still…now…I feel as if I am in a trance. Yesterday I went to see my mom, I whispered in her ear that I love her and she was only trying to protect me and that there is nothing to forgive. I watched as her body shifted and her breathing became softer and she had a deep sense of peace come over her. This morning I got another call, mom went back to JoAnn to thank her and she said she can leave now, so I know it will be soon.
Sometimes when a person has these gifts they wonder if they are crazy, not having support from the ones we love is hard. Beyond words, it is hard. We have to overcome the judgment of the world and we can not and do not always say the words you want to hear, but the words are what you may need to hear and they are always a blessing and bring eventual peace if we allow them in. When we really need to have something happen for us in our lives so we can move forward, God will always find a way to make it happen. I am at peace and humbled with gratitude that this has all taken place, and this is what it is all about. This is why I do what I do, helping others find peace in their hearts so they can truly experience their lives.
It was through my wanting to help others find peace in their hearts that I was given the gift of true peace in my own.
Merry Christmas and may God bless you!
Claire ext. 5242