I don’t know many words that cause more of a stir than the word “psychic.” Thanks to tons of scammers, even those who are genuinely gifted are immediately sneered at and hated. But what if psychic ability is just another skill our brain can pick up? I’d like to share what I think attributed to my own psychic ability – and explain why these abilities are not foolproof, and why they did not provide me with a carefree life.
I grew up in an abusive home. Most children grow up honing their five senses. I learned, before I was even four years old, that the five senses are the most easily deceived ones. I learned to hone my “sixth sense.” I learned to read every nuance of voice and body language, and I learned how to predict what would happen next. I learned this with so much accuracy that I was never in the wrong place at the wrong time – and so I survived. Doing these things was just as “normal” for me as it would be for any other child to practice reading. I learned how to astral travel, and I did it so well that other people would notice me at times, telling me that they saw me in their room at night – even though I was hundreds of miles away.
I didn’t share this ability with anyone – I kept pushing it away. But when I was nineteen, I met a psychic who told me that my memory would come back within the next few years. It did. I predicted the Northridge quake — I had constant dreams of things that were about to happen — I would “see” what people were doing when I would concentrate on them. This started to freak people out – and I started running into absolute resentment with a few friends who were furious about my predictions coming true.
So I tried to hide it. I never called it “being psychic,” and I learned to read Tarot, just so that I could put people’s minds at ease. I could say “the cards say so.” This made people feel better. They don’t react too kindly to someone who goes into a kind of trance and then first starts reciting their past (especially the things that not even their best friends know) and then goes into detail about their future.
What I have learned is that people don’t want to be told the things they don’t want to hear. People will ask for advice, but what they really want is someone who keeps supporting their delusions. I also learned that no one can predict the future 100%, because there is always free will. I therefore added a clause to my readings – “this is the most likely outcome, based on the current path you are on.” There is no carved-in-stone reading, although most really good psychics will be fairly accurate, because most people rarely alter their paths.
I don’t know next week’s winning lotto numbers. But what I do have is an uncanny ability to sense danger, to sense a “good path,” or how to help another who might be in a bad place. I have learned that I have a gift that helps others, and I use it for only that – and so do the real psychics. We’re just people who have learned to use a certain part of our “brain” to help others and ourselves from entering into paths that don’t serve us. I still feel isolated and ashamed of being different, but I am happy to proclaim that I have helped quite a few to find their path, achieve a goal, or align with their higher purpose.