There are certain constants in the chaos of emotional distress. Everyone has a dream of what that need fulfillment looks like. It may not be well-formulated, but the feeling, once experienced, can never be trivialized or forgotten. Some may actually run from it – so powerful is the perceived risk to their well-being. So powerful is this universal need that all manner of decision-making, whether illusionary or not, is easily justified. The consequences simply do not matter, as long as that feeling can be restored. All human endeavor in every form seems to revolve around this single concept: self esteem.
Why are we all struggling with this issue? It seems that we came into life with this quality already embedded into our psyches. The nature vs. nurture debate will never be settled. I believe it is something much deeper, much more universal. I have approached this issue from multiple perspectives – namely, astrologically, biblically and Theosophically. I only ask you to consider my position.
Why is it that Pat Benatar, a Capricorn, has the mouth of a goat? Why can a good astrologer determine a person’s Sun sign by the shape of their hand? I could go on and on, but you get the point. The only explanation I can logically come up with is: spiritual prototypes or templates. “As above, so below.” WE, are the below.
Cast aside all religious judgment. According to Theosophical thought, there is only Source, followed by an impulse. The impulse created movement, but maybe one should say “creates movement,” since “created” implies a beginning, and I make no such assumption. The movement indicates Source manifesting as creation, resulting in polar opposites. Source we will call GOOD or GOD. Manifestation we will label EVIL or DEVIL.
The Bible refers to this movement as “The Fall of the Angels.” They are also referred to as “The Self-Willed.”
Now, we can see in all of nature that as the intellect increases from species to species, so does free will. Isn’t it likely that in the higher spiritual realms, this progression abides? It seems logical to me. Remember, freedom to choose is freedom to make mistakes. So, for a moment, let us assume that a mistake WAS made, at a high spiritual level, which in fact created this reality.
So, what is this reality and how are we connected to these “Self-Willed Prototypes” I believe that all of creation is the karmic consequence of this separation from Source, by high spiritual levels of consciousness. Each of us is a fragment of those energies, all operating at distinct vibrations, which can be read astrologically. We are each but karmic “fragments” of the 12 levels of spirit – hence, the zodiac. The “Original Sin” did not occur in this reality, yet we are connected to it by these karmic threads.
The “Pistis Sophia”, which is a Gnostic text, describes a conversation between Jesus and his apostles. One asks him where he came from. Jesus replies that he came from the 13th level. He was “sent.” Refer to Revelations and read that “24 kings sit at the right hand of God,” and “1/3 of the stars fell from the sky.” The stars that fell are the 12 signs of the zodiac. Collectively, it is you and I. Something in us knows that and this is why we all feel so alone, and not good enough. We are each, in our own way, now clawing our way back to Source, union. It is a sacred journey. For all we know, an endless cycle-the Breath of God.