There are some things we can change in our lives. Some are inexorable. Wisdom is recognizing the difference. The patterns that continue to recur require novel responses in order to create new patterns in one’s life. The will or need of the ego is often at odds with the spiritual destiny of the individual. This is the equivalent of the ego pushing against the universe-applying force. When the universe pushes back, it often does, Karmic Law is the reason. No amount of pressure applied to a stressful situation will FIX it. In fact, force generally makes it worse. The harder we push, the harder the universe pushes back. On a subconscious level, we all know that we are only painting ourselves into a smaller and smaller corner. It is truly a process of learning – not to be viewed as a mistake. When we are ready, we change. It is the change that we both fear and require to grow. The game is fixed on a highly spiritual level and we are in full agreement with the pre-set course. We choose to remain asleep. Why?<\/p>\n
Awareness brings with it responsibility. Knowing the truth of the SELF and failing to act on it carries a further karmic burden. From a spiritual perspective, one can only feign ignorance for so long. Misfortune in life is designed to wake us up. The tragedy is that there is an easier way. We do not have to experience misery to grow.<\/p>\n
Over a year ago I went through my second Saturn return. I didn’t recognize it at the time but I found myself experiencing fundamental emotional pain, that left me feeling alone and broken. I felt such a depth of sadness that I sporadically wept over a four day period. The last day of this period, out of desperation, I pulled my Bible out and opened it to a random page. The page was in the Old Testament – I can’t remember which part. The paragraph that my eyes focused on presented to me this idea, “You made a promise to God, and now you must keep it.” This snapped me out of it. I got the message. We don’t use Spirit. Spirit uses us. Sooner or later we will all surrender and be brought to our knees. Our choice is how we get there. Misery is only a way. It is not the only way and it is not the best way. It seems to be the easy way. This is the illusion – it truly is the most difficult way.<\/p>\n